
from Soliloquy in Bed
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They flow naturally.
What should I do with these tears?
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I’d like to recover soon
and spread the names of God and Jesus.
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There are nights when I fall asleep
to the sound of the waves meshing with my thoughts.
There are times when I can’t sleep at all.
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Tomiko,
I don’t mean that.
I mean that if I must die anyway
then please let me die with a beautiful heart.
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Tomiko,
when we knew happiness together,
those times when I was to blame for things,
I can now see very clearly.
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Seen through the window, the sky and flowing clouds—
I turn away from their excessive seriousness.
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Tomiko,
I can’t stand being in bed alone.
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O Heavenly Father,
please save this feeble body and soul
and let me work on behalf of the light of God and Christ.
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Tomiko,
when not calling God’s name
I’m calling yours.
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I will be together with the heart of God.
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Momoko and Yooji,
it’s painful that I can’t see you.
I’m happiest at having been your father
and not anyone else’s.
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Ah, how wonderful the sound of those waves.
I’d love to go to the beach.
Entry written by D.S. Martin. He is the award-winning author of the poetry collections Poiema (Wipf & Stock) and So The Moon Would Not Be Swallowed (Rubicon Press). They are both available at: www.dsmartin.ca